- i must accept the past in it’s entirety. i must accept not only the bad, but embrace the good as well.
- suppressing memories takes more effort then to allow them to flow. acceptance will make them less painful, and simply parts of your past.
- fear must be faced. if it is not, it will simply gain more power and thrive on itself. fear must be faced to move on so that it is no longer stunting personal growth, but something that is extinguished, once feared now remembered.
- he did not form who i am today. he has contributed to who i used to be.
- it is not my responsibility to make others happy.
- i am human, and i am imperfect.
- i should not strive to attain perfection. i should strive to be happy with myself, accept achievements and failures.
- there are different kinds of loves. i should not be afraid to love because i am not who i used to be. i will not fall for the same kind of love.
- i should cut chords that connect me to a past i do not want to relive.
- i should trust myself.
2+ years. i think i can do this.
before my 21st birthday (ONE WEEK!) i am going to perform a ritual. i will write an open letter. to myself, and to him. i will write anything i’ve ever wanted to say. and then i will let it go. because it is springtime. the flowers are in bloom and the trees are starting to bud. it is unforunate to spend years upon years grieving, being guilty, thinking about the past, and hating myself for it. we are all too rare, too significant to not embrace ourselves and enjoy eachother.
